I'm pretty frustrated at how slowly I am recovering. The last time I was very, very sick, I was working at Eddie Bauer ('98-'99) and my managers sent me home near the beginning of my shift. Then I got home and fell into bed and didn't get out until at least two weeks later. I was bed-ridden and couldn't hold down any food. I probably lost close to ten pounds that time and I was already under 100 lbs. then (oh, gone are the days of size 0 waistlines). I think that illness took me out for a month.
This time, my illness is sickeningly (ha ha) frustrating because I don't feel sick enough to stay in bed, but I'm too sick to do too much. I have trouble breathing, which makes any strenuous activity unfeasible in my condition. I still have to build one more bookshelf and take down the Christmas decorations, which if I don't do it soon, I might as well leave them up until July and earn the award for tackiest house on the block. I need to vacuum and clean the washrooms; D had to finish doing the laundry that I started last Saturday.
Every day I exhibit different symptoms. Last night I was hacking my lungs out and my voice was too hoarse to talk to my parents on the phone. The day before I was dizzy and light-headed. Throughout it all, my nose runs like a faucet; D went out to buy me Puffs Plus tissue and I used up a box in one day.
I haven't been to a doctor's because I don't have one and I don't really like walk-in clinics. I don't mind them, but I hope to start seeing a consistent physician, preferably female, and female doctors are really hard to find. The ones I know about aren't taking any more new patients. I'll just have to call around and hope to find one soon. Besides, I'm at the point in my illness that I think I know what the doctor will recommend, which I'm already doing -- drinking lots, taking Vitamin C, taking over-the-counter medicine for my symptoms, and resting. It's a virus -- what more can I do except let it run its course? (Dr. F.C., you can correct me on this!)
D has been a superb husband, looking after me and sacrificing his holiday time to stay at home with me. I feel really badly that I used up his vacation time in a nonconstructive way. I really wanted my sister to be with me, too. She has a take-charge way with making me feel comfortable and cheering me up when I don't feel well. I miss her terribly at a time like this.
Everybody has a different way of handling one's own time of sickness. I prefer having someone close by in case I need something, but I don't like having someone right beside me all the time. Like if I was puking, I don't want someone holding my hair and rubbing my back, which embarrasses me that this person has to witness my time of glory, but I don't mind it if that someone was in another room nearby; just knowing that I'm not alone in my sickness helps me get through this.
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We really wanted you guys to be with us too! I'm so sorry that you had to ring in the new year with extra passengers (aka: the virus), but I'm glad D knew that "A nose in need deserves Puffs Plus indeed". =)
I was slightly under the weather during the holidays too. I'm still fighting it off, but it wasn't bad enough to stop the partying.
Hope you feel better soon! Wishing you and D a very blessed new year! *HUGS*
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Ohhh, could this be "morning sickness"? ^_~
Don't worry about the Christmas lights & tree, Tree! Since we missed our annual get-together at Christmas, we can have a "Christmas in July"! =D
Hope you'll feel better soon! *hugs* (sneaks a feel of your tummy... heh ya sure you're not...?) ^_~
NO, I'M NOT, MAAFA!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha
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